“I Am Sorry That It Has Come to This”: A Soldier’s Last Words

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What I am about to type is about the WORLD War Machine, the USA, UK and their allies…I hope people understand this. Thank you, THIS IS SO SAD. This happened in the UK also, people taking their own lives. It happens world wide. I am blogging this as it was sent to me Via email by an American friend. And it is sad. Our Governments Lie and do this to our young woman and men. They make them War Machines, them discharge them. I have 2 friends who suffer BADLY due to the UK Army doing this. Not good

This is so sad, Daniel from Arizona, USA, took his own like out of guilt. He was forced by his American Commanders to commit War Crimes. I often looked into this matter myself, and I seen many ex-soldiers say things on You Tube, only to be brought to task over their words. Daniel will not be brought to task over his words, he took his own life. This on the face of it seems to be the “Drum of democratic freedom at play”  This is what Freedom it, this is what Soldiers are being forced to do in the name of “PEACE” Daniel Somers was a veteran of Operation Iraqi Freedom. He was part of Task Force Lightning, an intelligence unit. In 2004-2005, he was mainly assigned to a Tactical Human-Intelligence Team (THT) in Baghdad, Iraq, where he ran more than 400 combat missions as a machine gunner in the turret of a Humvee, interviewed countless Iraqis ranging from concerned citizens to community leaders and and government officials, and interrogated dozens of insurgents and terrorist suspects. In 2006-2007, Daniel worked with Joint Special Operations Command (JSOC) through his former unit in Mosul where he ran the Northern Iraq Intelligence Center. His official role was as a senior analyst for the Levant (Lebanon, Syria, Jordan, Israel, and part of Turkey). Daniel suffered greatly from PTSD and had been diagnosed with traumatic brain injury and several other war-related conditions. On June 10, 2013, Daniel wrote the following letter to his family before taking his life. Daniel was 30 years old. His wife and family have given permission to publish it. This is very hard to read, and gives a terrible insight into the state of  the “War Machine” that stomps around the globe in the name a freedom it denies its own people back home. I find this shocking, upsetting and the truth. This is what these men and woman do, are told to do, are ordered to do. God only knows what acts these brave woman and men have to do. This is not the  first ex serving soldier from the USA or the UK to take their own life. Take note, if your son/daughter wants to join this War Machine, do what you need to do to stop them, they are being killed slowly, they are being made into Robots, killing machines, then sent home.  Before this Soldier took his own life, he left a message for his family and the world to read, so please, read the truth, it is a  bitter pill to swallow, it is a hard one to believe, but as I rattle on against this War Machine killing our planet, here is more sad proof of its disasterous ways. 

I ask , How many wars do American’s have to experience before they wake the hell up and STOP SIGNING UP!

I am sorry that it has come to this.

The fact is, for as long as I can remember my motivation for getting up every day has been so that you would not have to bury me. As things have continued to get worse, it has become clear that this alone is not a sufficient reason to carry on. The fact is, I am not getting better, I am not going to get better, and I will most certainly deteriorate further as time goes on. From a logical standpoint, it is better to simply end things quickly and let any repercussions from that play out in the short term than to drag things out into the long term.

You will perhaps be sad for a time, but over time you will forget and begin to carry on. Far better that than to inflict my growing misery upon you for years and decades to come, dragging you down with me. It is because I love you that I can not do this to you. You will come to see that it is a far better thing as one day after another passes during which you do not have to worry about me or even give me a second thought. You will find that your world is better without me in it.

I really have been trying to hang on, for more than a decade now. Each day has been a testament to the extent to which I cared, suffering unspeakable horror as quietly as possible so that you could feel as though I was still here for you. In truth, I was nothing more than a prop, filling space so that my absence would not be noted. In truth, I have already been absent for a long, long time.

My body has become nothing but a cage, a source of pain and constant problems. The illness I have has caused me pain that not even the strongest medicines could dull, and there is no cure. All day, every day a screaming agony in every nerve ending in my body. It is nothing short of torture. My mind is a wasteland, filled with visions of incredible horror, unceasing depression, and crippling anxiety, even with all of the medications the doctors dare give. Simple things that everyone else takes for granted are nearly impossible for me. I can not laugh or cry. I can barely leave the house. I derive no pleasure from any activity. Everything simply comes down to passing time until I can sleep again. Now, to sleep forever seems to be the most merciful thing.

You must not blame yourself. The simple truth is this: During my first deployment, I was made to participate in things, the enormity of which is hard to describe. War crimes, crimes against humanity. Though I did not participate willingly, and made what I thought was my best effort to stop these events, there are some things that a person simply can not come back from. I take some pride in that, actually, as to move on in life after being part of such a thing would be the mark of a sociopath in my mind. These things go far beyond what most are even aware of.

To force me to do these things and then participate in the ensuing coverup is more than any government has the right to demand. Then, the same government has turned around and abandoned me. They offer no help, and actively block the pursuit of gaining outside help via their corrupt agents at the DEA. Any blame rests with them.

Beyond that, there are the host of physical illnesses that have struck me down again and again, for which they also offer no help. There might be some progress by now if they had not spent nearly twenty years denying the illness that I and so many others were exposed to. Further complicating matters is the repeated and severe brain injuries to which I was subjected, which they also seem to be expending no effort into understanding. What is known is that each of these should have been cause enough for immediate medical attention, which was not rendered.

Lastly, the DEA enters the picture again as they have now managed to create such a culture of fear in the medical community that doctors are too scared to even take the necessary steps to control the symptoms. All under the guise of a completely manufactured “overprescribing epidemic,” which stands in stark relief to all of the legitimate research, which shows the opposite to be true. Perhaps, with the right medication at the right doses, I could have bought a couple of decent years, but even that is too much to ask from a regime built upon the idea that suffering is noble and relief is just for the weak.

However, when the challenges facing a person are already so great that all but the weakest would give up, these extra factors are enough to push a person over the edge.

Is it any wonder then that the latest figures show 22 veterans killing themselves each day? That is more veterans than children killed at Sandy Hook, every single day. Where are the huge policy initiatives? Why isn’t the president standing with those families at the state of the union? Perhaps because we were not killed by a single lunatic, but rather by his own system of dehumanization, neglect, and indifference.

It leaves us to where all we have to look forward to is constant pain, misery, poverty, and dishonor. I assure you that, when the numbers do finally drop, it will merely be because those who were pushed the farthest are all already dead.

And for what? Bush’s religious lunacy? Cheney’s ever growing fortune and that of his corporate friends? Is this what we destroy lives for

Since then, I have tried everything to fill the void. I tried to move into a position of greater power and influence to try and right some of the wrongs. I deployed again, where I put a huge emphasis on saving lives. The fact of the matter, though, is that any new lives saved do not replace those who were murdered. It is an exercise in futility.

Then, I pursued replacing destruction with creation. For a time this provided a distraction, but it could not last. The fact is that any kind of ordinary life is an insult to those who died at my hand. How can I possibly go around like everyone else while the widows and orphans I created continue to struggle? If they could see me sitting here in suburbia, in my comfortable home working on some music project they would be outraged, and rightfully so.

I thought perhaps I could make some headway with this film project, maybe even directly appealing to those I had wronged and exposing a greater truth, but that is also now being taken away from me. I fear that, just as with everything else that requires the involvement of people who can not understand by virtue of never having been there, it is going to fall apart as careers get in the way.

The last thought that has occurred to me is one of some kind of final mission. It is true that I have found that I am capable of finding some kind of reprieve by doing things that are worthwhile on the scale of life and death. While it is a nice thought to consider doing some good with my skills, experience, and killer instinct, the truth is that it isn’t realistic. First, there are the logistics of financing and equipping my own operation, then there is the near certainty of a grisly death, international incidents, and being branded a terrorist in the media that would follow. What is really stopping me, though, is that I simply am too sick to be effective in the field anymore. That, too, has been taken from me.

Thus, I am left with basically nothing. Too trapped in a war to be at peace, too damaged to be at war. Abandoned by those who would take the easy route, and a liability to those who stick it out—and thus deserve better. So you see, not only am I better off dead, but the world is better without me in it

This is what brought me to my actual final mission. Not suicide, but a mercy killing. I know how to kill, and I know how to do it so that there is no pain whatsoever. It was quick, and I did not suffer. And above all, now I am free. I feel no more pain. I have no more nightmares or flashbacks or hallucinations. I am no longer constantly depressed or afraid or worried

I am free.

I ask that you be happy for me for that. It is perhaps the best break I could have hoped for. Please accept this and be glad for me.

Daniel Somers

USA, FEMA, China, Africa – What is happening here?

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BEFORE I BLOG HERE, I KNOW THIS BLOG WILL HAVE HARDLY ANY COMMENTS OR LIKES, PEOPLE ARE TOO LAZY TO CHECK!! SADLY 😦

**EDIT/Breaking** http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread945915/pg1  (Possible) Syrian Electronic Army Hacks Israel’s Main Infrastructure Control System (SCADA)

I honour “Bloggers for Peace” and the movement as much as I can, and the truth of this movement is so close to my heart and mind I can’t not get involved

Only in the last few weeks have we seen what could be the first shots of WWIII for real. I believe WWIII is already happening, I think it is a Cyber War, the World has moved on, wars are no longer always fought in a trench they are fought through cyber space. I think HARD RESEARCH is needed to see things this way, I hear and read and get told of many cyber attacks on military all over the world.

The bombs sent from Israel last week, if you believe a Cyber War is happening, it could be believed that the bombs did indeed get launched from Israel, but did Israel fire? I don’t think so. Israel and the IDF were hacked by Anonymous several times and had key military components closed down, anyone with their ear to the ground will know this to be true, here are a few links

http://news.yahoo.com/anonymous-hits-israel-massive-cyber-attack-israel-attacks-005659174.html

http://www.aljazeera.com/news/middleeast/2013/04/2013474231321120.html

One of the best news sources I watch is Aljazeera England news (Just read and told in English), it tells the truth more than the main stream media like Fox, CNN, SKY and the BBC, I am not saying it is perfect, but unless you have watched it, you won’t know.

I look at the world right now and I NEVER take sides, Syria SEEM to be doing wrong, but look back to Iraq, we all went to War there on a lie, look to Libya, Gaddafi did more for the people of that country that he is given credit for. Many will say “Rubbish he was a criminal” Was he any more of a criminal than George Bush and my ex Prime Minister Tony Blair for going to Iraq, killing American, British soldiers and thousands of people, thousands of kids? I don’t see a difference here

Also greed is the reason I see for War, War creates money, of course it does, go google Halliburton and the Rothchild family and how they back both sides of many wars

What did Gaddafi do for his country? Here check: http://expertscolumn.com/content/list-good-things-muammar-gaddafi-done-people-libya He did wrong, but did he do any worse than Bush or Blair or many more I could name? Did he deserve to die live on TV, the easy answer is no, no man or woman deserves to meet their makes in this way. Hours after he died Hilary Clinton had this to say

Well said Hilary!! I am so glad death of a man was so funny for you; this is the same woman who lied about the deaths of American people on foreign soil.

I love people, I hate the powers that be, I hate how we are lied to, and I hate how people blindly do what this video shows below:

Why is China doing this? Built and building cities all over African http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2168507/Footage-shows-brand-new-Angolan-city-designed-500-000-lying-empty.html

There are hundreds of these in Africa, China owned, empty Ghost Towns.. Why?

There are hundreds of these in Africa, China owned, empty Ghost Towns.. Why?

Why is China doing this? Buying USA land?  http://www.zerohedge.com/news/2013-01-22/chinese-politicians-are-buying-billions-us-real-estate

Why is the USA doing this? Building camps all over? Buying MILLIONS of plastic coffins?  http://adventofdeception.com/fema-concentration-camps-america/

CBS News admitting FEMA Camps are a go http://www.thecommonsenseshow.com/2012/11/12/cbs-news-admits-fema-camps-are-real/

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FEMA Camp

Where the camps are

Where the camps are

Why

Why

Why is American buying MILLIONS of these?

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Video on the subject:

I could be here a while, but there are so many not answered questions, and much of what I wrote here, YOU WON’T KNOW!! Please don’t believe me, PLEASE GO DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH!

The world is on the edge, are we closer than we were at the Cuban missile crisis? I think we may be closer. We don’t want war, we want peace, but what is going on?

Answers on a postcard to “Shaun, Scotland” I will get them

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PLEASE DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH. IF YOU ARE TOO LAZY TO DO SO, THEN PLEASE DON’T COMMENT. THIS SHIT IS FOR REAL, WAKE UP!!

Blogger for Peace.

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I would like to thank fellow “Blogger for peace”  DAY ONE Barbara @ http://looneyatoms.com/ for bringing this to my attention. I seen on another bloggers page the “Bloggers for peace” badge and stole it, lol. I had NO idea there was a Blog for it here http://everydaygurus.com/2012/12/20/we-can-make-a-difference-right-here-right-now/  from everyday gurus I just thought it was a cool saying. So I am going to join this, and once a month do a blog on the Peace movement. Anyone that knows me, will have picked up, like Barbara did, I am a Blogger for Peace, so I was part of it without knowing I guess.

I would say EVERYONE has a look at this, because one blog at a time, one reply at a time, one song, one saying, just trying, we may get Peace. I won’t give up on it, and I know you won’t either. Anyone that craves War, craves it for financial gain, or is a Soldier who likes War. As a Blogger for Peace, I would say these people are the architects of War, and they must be stopped

I will add the “B4Peace” to my blog here, in a show of solidarity with others who crave peace as I do, I love it, and it speaks to me in a way of Peace

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This here is in my Blog and has been since the start http://prayingforoneday.wordpress.com/about/ Under “Why I hope” it says:

We live in an world full of love, but also we are fed violence through the media. A world that is more connected through technology, but less connected than ever as people.

We don’t interact, and the world has become a corporate machine, where money  rules over the heart.

One person at a time, one blog at a time, one conversation at a time, we CAN change our world

Shaun

So all along my ideology of Peace was there, I just didn’t know it. But I will add more.

I think we live in a world where War is for profit and blood flows all over for a small percentage of people can add an extra zero to their bank balance, they make me sick. I did a blog a while back, and the theme was “We don’t want war” http://prayingforoneday.wordpress.com/2013/03/11/this-picture-speaks-1000-words-kindness-and-hate-war-all-in-one/ This picture below speaks volumes, A man from the USA and a Man from Iran, at the London Olympics sharing a Hug. We the people don’t want war, we want peace, we want to love and share and help where we can, we want to share cultures and be part of each others cultures and give a shit.

Kindness on a GLOBAL scale, we don’t see this much do we?

Kindness on a GLOBAL scale, we don’t see this much do we?

So I throw my hat into the “Blogger for peace” movement and if you give a shit, yes YOU, join in. I am aware any day War could be on my doorstep, and this is the ignorance sometimes, if we can’t see war, we are immune to it so we don’t give a shit. But for the people all over the world in War, at War on in Civil War, we must put ourselves in these people’s shoes to show we give a  damn about them. We must blog and the then blog some more, and then just in-case, blog again against this Global War Machine I hate with every fibre of my being. If you have morals and love and care, then take 20 minutes out of your day and join this “Bloggers for Peace” movement, the more who do it, the more may listen. Never say never. Once I  thought WWIII was a given, it was going to happen, now I am not so sure. We are close. Name a county not in, or at war or in civil war, you will be hard pushed to produce a list with any substance.

So we must all come together, the VAST MAJORITY and say, with one voice “NO” We don’t want to kill each other. And tell this 1% to take their money, run for the hills and let people who will rule FOR US not against us, and allow these people to run a world where hope can be seen, where solidarity can be felt and expressed, where we can say to a fellow human, from anywhere “Are you ok”  I am in, and I will be in harder and harder, as this is a subject close to my heart and my being, this is just my opening blog, expect harder blogs than this to come, I hope I can do “Bloggers for peace” some justice

DO IT!

Join in!

Join in!

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I often show this video, it means more now! 

After seeing all of this, take the 20 minutes, or deny ignorance! 

This picture speaks 1,000 words. Kindness and Hate, War, all in one

Life can be this simple

Life can be this simple

Sometimes I blog, and I will talk about Hate. Sometimes, in fact, all the time, I blog about Individual acts of kindness, and I do so for a reason. If you care, read on, if not, look away now

When I talk of Hate, I mean on a Global scale, Nation against nation, the picture below is EXACTLY what I mean. These two countries will no doubt end up in War, the USA and Iran. But what we see in that picture are “Individual acts of kindness” No hatred, these two sportsman from the Olympics in London 2012 don’t want war. You will find most people of most countries don’t want war. And because of War, we get hatred. I see it in my country, for our reasons.  War is spreading in our world like wildfire, and over what? Oil? Money? Profiteering? In the name of God? Yeah to all that sadly

But look at this picture. The expression “A picture speaks a thousand words” is never as true here, USA and Iran, soon to be going to war. Why? 

Kindness on a GLOBAL scale, we don't see this much do we?

Kindness on a GLOBAL scale, we don’t see this much do we?

The title says “kindness and hate all in one” And when I do blog about hate, it is on a global scale I mean, we only see kindness like this picture above. The hate is not in this picture. But these below show hatred, in our world, the world in many quarters has turned against the US and her Allies, and can we blame them? We stomp (I am from the UK) around the world in the name of freedom, and a freedom we don’t give to our own people. The people of my Country hate our Government for going to Iraq, I can’t speak for any other. We went to Iraq on a lie, what lie will we go into Iran and cause WWIII? It is close, Syria, Russia, North Korea and China are all preparing for war. Is there anything I can do? No, I can only show love and pray I am wrong, that TV land is wrong, watching the American news scares me to death! lol I don’t know how you guys cope!

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I don't have to explain this to anyone, only should it be blood or oil or both?

I don’t have to explain this to anyone, only should it be blood or oil or both?

May I add there is NOTHING I can do about this hatred, I just hate it and don’t get it, and I hope you do to, I am part of this “We hate Terrorism” culture, I helped vote the idiots in! made up to enter war.  Dead PM Robin Cook, Foreign secretary who died after saying this below, was he right? Were we all conned into a mythical terror? Could it be?

Robin Cook, now dead, for not wanting the USA her Allies to go to Iraq, I was friends with his son

Robin Cook, now dead, for not wanting the USA her Allies to go to Iraq and speaking the truth, I was friends with his son

Sorry if this blog strayed of the reasons I blogged it, but there is Hate and Love in our world. We just need to realise it and not shy away from it. All the “Pretending” it isn’t there isn’t going to do anyone any good, and I am not aiming this at any country, person, or people. I blog HARD on Love and Hate. This is me doing it again. Nothing more, nothing less

BUT!! I have a partner, 4 kids and a family and friends, like all you reading this, I will love them, smile, be happy, laugh, share on here, do what I do, and pray that someone somewhere can see that War and hatred and stirring hatred between countries and people and groups of people IS NOT THE WAY, we have choice. As the people of this world we can stand by and say “Ahh not my problem” or we can act on our GOD GIVEN  RIGHT AND SAY NO. In the USA The second Amendment is clear. If the people think the Government is not worthy or is telling lies and doing wrong to its own people, they can act, sadly it may be to late, as Obama wants YOUR gun

In the UK we don’t have Guns, but we have a voice, and we use it, we demonstrate, and we change things, or we try. We tried to stop Blair following Bush into Iraq, but he went anyway, Tony Blair will go down as the biggest coward Prime Minister of all time, and Robin Cook above, was he right? Did the USA and the UK make up Al-Qaeda? The USA did arm someone when Russia invaded Afghanistan. And help Osama Bin Laden, the UK armed Libya to the teeth for some Oil and let bomber Abdelbaset al-Megrahi go home, then struck an Oil deal weeks later with Libya

WHAT A FUCKED UP WORLD WE LIVE IN EH…….. I look for God, but people make it hard, maybe I make it hard, maybe I look too hard, but I don’t do hate, love always

In the meantime, love those close. If you don’t want to worry about these things in our world. then don’t read them, if you care about our world, then become a voice

Love, Peace and Light

We STILL love, live, share, care and hope!

We STILL love, live, share, care and hope!

To sum up, does me hating hate, make me a hater? We have to turn the coin round sometimes and see the other side. Maybe hatred of hate is too strong, a strong dislike perhaps 🙂

Shaun

Is this the PROOF The Iraq war was a lie – declassified Rumsfeld Memos?

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(Taken from a another blog and modified by me)

On this show here http://maddowblog.msnbc.com/_news/2013/02/18/17005939-hubris-selling-the-iraq-war-the-rumsfeld-memos there were a  things said and aired that surprised even me. I did the blog about Australian independent PM Ann Bressington exposing what she thought were lies to deceive the Australian people by the club of Rome (Secret based theme close to Scottish Freemasonry) this was the blog: http://prayingforoneday.wordpress.com/2013/02/06/new-world-order-exposed-by-ann-bressington-australian-mp/

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I believe through years of study, and I am a Scotsman with many family members in the freemasons, one as high as 32 degree, I know through really researching this secret culture it is a “Jobs for the boys” business, but as a younger man I thought it was a Scottish thing, oh how stupid I was 🙂

Are we slowly seeing a world where the truth is being told? I for one hope so. The IRAQ was destabilized the region badly, and still to this day it is bad, and the surrounding areas are now on full alert as America or Isreal, Iran, Syria, whoever, may act with aggression. There are no right’s and wrong’s here, only war and people being killed.

When we elect people to top level positions in power, the average American expects there to be accountability and honesty in government. Not wars for political and monetary gain. Now we have been screaming this forever around here, only to be ridiculed as “paranoid conspiracy theorists.” 

The Conspiracy people for me, may have been right after all, you judge for yourself. Were we taken to War on a lie?

These declassified memos show how the administration perhaps planned it in secrecy, and also key areas of concern, Oil being one of them

Col. Lawrence Wilkerson, former chief of staff to Secretary of State Colin Powell, said Monday on MSNBC that he’s “damn sure the Bush administration cooked the books” when it came to pushing for the invasion of Iraq. I don’t think for a second many will debate the other way we were all led into Iraq on a lie. I am from the UK, I know people who died and friends who served over there. Their heads are ruined for life.

Wilkerson was speaking to host Ed Schultz about the Republican filibuster of Defence Secretary nominee Chuck Hegel, but transitioned into a plug for MSNBC’s new documentary “Hubris: Selling the Iraq War,” which aired Monday night.

The documentary featured never-before-seen memos by Secretary of Defence Donald Rumsfeld, composed in November, 2001, clearly showing he and aides work shopping ideas for selling the invasion of Iraq. “US discovers Saddam connection to Sept. 11 attack or to anthrax attacks?” one possibility reads. “Dispute over WMD inspections? Start now thinking about inspection demands.”

Here are the released documents, make of them what you will. I do this blog so others can debate and make their own minds up, I hope people do look further into this. People who STILL can’t see our leaders lie for money and oil need a good shake! The video below, please watch it also. It was done by a famous rapper, and his voice changed. I am into Rap and I think the wording in the video/song is a give away

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Just take a look at that story, and what the former Chief of Staff is saying about it. While in office, Rumsfeld also had a share and say in Halliburton, the war machine. He and Bush both had shares in this. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dick_Cheney Just how much were we lied to and still being  lied to? The mind boggles and one of my pet hates, should you read my blogs, is Corporate Greed. People in a position to help, making millions of Dollars/pounds/Euro’s

I can’t and won’t say this is 100%, never. But lets open our eyes to the types of people running our world, the developed high powered part that is. They are scheming, secretive, lying people, who will throw blood on battlefields and not even think about it. They really DO NOT CARE any more about the soldier’s lives, or the family’s lives that are so affected by this- much less the children and other innocents who bear the brunt of their lasting destruction with depleted uranium.

The Amerikan Dream.

You military still on the fence, it’s time to step down on the side of freedom from this. We need a total cleansing.