I have been online now 19 years, and been on every social media outlet there has ever been, never had an issue of note that I couldn’t take care of, I had a “Moment” or two on Twitter when I was blogging football, but the issues I had were me standing my ground. Anyway….
In the last month, I got REAL friendly with a woman on here. I love her as a friend. Same as I do with many people. I will give you an example, my good pal Eddie at http://bishoptatro.wordpress.com/ I love as a brother, we talk on Skype and he is one cool dude, and a brilliant lad
The woman I got friendly with, I think we got too close, and I said at the very start, “Should this go all wrong and things go the wrong way, I will be the bastard”
And here we are, I am the bastard. I couldn’t offer ANY Woman more than friendship. If I tell somomeone I love them, like my good friend http://yaussiechick.wordpress.com/ who is VERY happily married to a brilliant man Adam (I am Sorry again D xx, I do love you), who I have spoken to, it means I love her as a friend, I love her company as I do Eddie above. I live in Scotland, I am Either 5,000 miles or 20,000 miles away, or somewhere in-between from most people I speak to here.
I say all the time I am married, I have kids, I am happy, and I mention Dawn my Partner a LOT for that reason. Not to big myself up, not to make myself look good or feel loved, but so people know I am in love with the woman of my dreams, check the blog below, I even have a song for the woman I love, my lover, there is a difference. Have I been hit on before on-line, yeah, most of us who spend time online do, but we don’t be nasty and say fuck off, we explain “I am married, you know this”, but it is from people who are either just curious or see something or hear something, in my case, TRUST ME!! It is my voice. Many women go for the Scottish voice. I will, as we say here in Scotland “Get a new arse ripped on me for this” My friends will have a REAL go in a fun way, but I have to say this. I need to say this, I don’t want to be the Bastard that much I leave Word Press, I depend on this place. I said before I may leave, this was the REAL reason I was maybe leaving. I didn’t know what to say or do. This is where my love and friendship with Dawn came in, I told her everything, but to be fair, there wasn’t a lot to tell. I just let her know I was friends, same as I do with ANYONE I meet online, be them man or woman. It is called being honest with the one you love in life
I won’t sit here and be the bastard from a woman who has a husband and kids herself. She is an AMAZING woman, I loved her as a friend. I liked speaking to her, I loved the debate. We shared stories, but the same stories I would share with anyone I was friends with and would NEVER see.
As you all know I started an award here, this one below “The Word Pres Family Award” as I feel and still do, there are people here, should we live closer, I would be real friends with. It was an award with my principles behind it, they are in red below it. I don’ t want to be that bastard, because I know I am now a bastard, I would never hurt any woman, never in a million years. I am highly medicated, as is the woman I speak about, a brilliant woman, who also knew we were both medicated. But I won’t be the bad lad here, IT TAKES TWO!!
This will be my last blog on this then I move on, so I remind you all, again, why I am here. Last week I lost my Aunt, then 2 people I love, because I was made to be the bastard, I done nothing wrong, but 2 woman, family members, made me be the bastard, as it suited their agenda. I will not be a bastard the THIRD TIME!! This is not fair!! 😦
This is an award for everyone who is part of the “Word Press Family” I start this award on the basis that the WordPress family has taken me in, and showed me love and a caring side only WordPress can. The way people take a second to be nice, to answer a question and not make things a competition amazes me here. I know I have been given many awards, but I wanted to leave my own legacy on here by creating my own award, as many have done before. This represents “Family” we never meet, but are there for us as family. It is my honour to start this award