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It is 05:00am Monday morning as I type, I went to bed on Saturday night, I am confused, sore, dizzy, but that is lack of medication. I had some 20 minutes ago when I got through to the Kitchen. My son was leaving for work, having to walk 2 mile in the dark and I couldn’t even give him a lift in the car, I am too sore, so I feel bad just now, all upset with my little self, it will pass

I had a dream, it lasted almost the two days it seemed, or day and a half, the world had been taken over by someone, there was strict laws in place, we were not allowed to do things and people were getting shot all over the place, there was an underground movement I had joined in this stupid dream. It was so real, then I woke up not knowing where I was for while, 10 minutes say, I was all over the place, couldn’t find the toilet, trying not to wake the kids up, and then it all came back, I was dreaming about Syrian, I was  Syrian I think. The dream was real

I also missed another day with everyone, my Mum visited yesterday and I missed her, I feel bad about that also. I feel bad about too much right now. But that is what comes with the territory of living in pain; there is no escape, only acceptance and having to deal with things.

It is taking me so long to type this it is untrue, my hands are shaking, but it will pass, I get this when I have been asleep two days and had no medication, it sucks but it will pass

I hope you are all fine, I hope you all had a good weekend, I just wish I could ask my own family this first, but you are as good as family to me now. Looking at it as the pain goes away a little and I wake up more, I wasn’t in pain for a while there, I was dreaming

Keep it real

More love, less hate

Shaun

Are you in pain? Do you Drink Soda/Fizzy Juice? Plz Read

 

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ASPARTAME COULD BE OUR PROBLEM IN DIET SODA/JUICE – CHECK YOUR DRINK FOR THIS ASPARTAME !! I just did, it’s there 

You in pain?

You drink fizzy juice/Soda?

Please read >

A KILLER IN YOUR FRIDGE

SWEET POISON..A MUST READ !!!

In October of 2001, my sister started getting very sick She had stomach spasms and she was having a hard time getting around. Walking was a major chore. It took everything she had just to get out of bed; she was in so much pain.

By March 2002, she had undergone several tissue and muscle biopsies and was on 24 various prescription medications. The doctors could not determine what was wrong with her. She was in so much pain, and so sick she just knew she was dying.

She put her house, bank accounts, life insurance, etc., in her oldest daughter’s name, and made sure that her younger children were to be taken care of.

She also wanted her last hooray, so she planned a trip to Florida (basically in a wheelchair) for March 22nd.

On March 19, I called her to ask how her most recent tests went, and she said they didn’t find anything on the test, but they believe she had MS.

I recalled an article a friend of mine e-mailed to me and I asked my sister if she drank diet soda? She told me that she did. As a matter of fact, she was getting ready to crack one open that moment.

I told her not to open it, and to stop drinking the diet soda! I e-mailed her an article my friend, a lawyer, had sent. My sister called me within 32 hours after our phone conversation and told me she had stopped drinking the diet soda AND she could walk! The muscle spasms went away. She said she didn’t feel 100% but, she sure felt a lot better.

She told me she was going to her doctor with this article and would call me when she got home.

Well, she called me, and said her doctor was amazed! He is going to call all of his MS patients to find out if they consumed artificial sweeteners of any kind. In a nutshell, she was being poisoned by the Aspartame in the diet soda.. and literally dying a slow and miserable death

When she got to Florida March 22, all she had to take was one pill, and that was a pill for the Aspartame poisoning! She is well on her way to a complete recovery. And she is walking! No wheelchair! This article saved her life.If it says ‘SUGAR FREE’ on the label; DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!I have spent several days lecturing at the WORLD ENVIRONMENTAL CONFERENCE on ‘ASPARTAME,’ marketed as’Nutra Sweet,’ ‘Equal,’ and ‘Spoonful.’In the keynote address by the EPA, it was announced that in the United States in 2001 there is an epidemic of multiple sclerosis and systemic lupus. It was difficult to determine exactly what toxin was causing this to be rampant. I stood up and said that I was there to lecture on exactly that subject.

I will explain why Aspartame is so dangerous: When the temperature of this sweetener exceeds 86 degrees F, the wood alcohol in ASPARTAME converts to formaldehyde and then to formic acid, which in turn causes metabolic acidosis. Formic acid is the poison found in the sting of fire ants. The methanol toxicity mimics, among other conditions, multiple sclerosis and systemic lupus.

Many people were being diagnosed in error. Although multiple sclerosis is not a death sentence, Methanol toxicity is!

Systemic lupus has become almost as rampant as multiple sclerosis, especially with Diet Coke and Diet Pepsi drinkers.The victim usually does not know that the Aspartame is the culprit. He or she continues its use; irritating the lupus to such a degree that it may become a life-threatening condition. We have seen patients with systemic lupus become asymptotic, once taken off diet sodas.

In cases of those diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis, most of the symptoms disappear. We’ve seen many cases where vision loss returned and hearing loss improved markedly.

This also applies to cases of tinnitus and fibromyalgia. During a lecture, I said, ‘If you are using ASPARTAME (Nutra Sweet, Equal, Spoonful, etc) and you suffer from fibromyalgia symptoms, spasms, shooting, pains, numbness in your legs,
Cramps,
Vertigo,
Dizziness,
Headaches,
Tinnitus,
Joint pain,
Unexplainable depression, anxiety attacks, slurred speech, blurred vision, or memory loss you probably have ASPARTAME poisoning!’ People were jumping up during the lecture saying,’I have some of these symptoms. Is it reversible?’

Yes!
Yes!
Yes!
STOP drinking diet sodas and be alert for Aspartame on food labels! Many products are fortified with it! This is a serious problem. Dr. Espart (one of my speakers) remarked that so many people seem to be symptomatic for MS and during his recent visit to a hospice; a nurse stated that six of her friends, who were heavy Diet Coke addicts, had all been diagnosed with MS. This is beyond coincidence!

Diet soda is NOT a diet product! It is a chemically altered, multiple SODIUM (salt) and ASPARTAME containing product that actually makes you crave carbohydrates.

It is far more likely to make you GAIN weight!

These products also contain formaldehyde, which stores in the fat cells, particularly in the hips and thighs. Formaldehyde is an absolute toxin and is used primarily to preserve ’tissue specimens.’

Many products we use every day contain this chemical but we SHOULD NOT store it IN our body!

Dr. H. J. Roberts stated in his lectures that once free of the ‘diet products’ and with no significant increase in exercise; his patients lost an average of 19 pounds over a trial period.Aspartame is especially dangerous for diabetics. We found that some physicians, who believed that they had a patient with retinopathy, in fact, had symptoms caused by Aspartame. The Aspartame drives the blood sugar out of control. Thus diabetics may suffer acute memory loss due to the fact that aspartic acid and phenylalanine are NEUROTOXIC when taken without the other amino acids necessary for a good balance.

Treating diabetes is all about BALANCE.. Especially with diabetics, the Aspartame passes the blood/brain barrier and it then deteriorates the neurons of the brain; causing various levels of brain damage, Seizures, Depression, Manic depression, Panic attacks, Uncontrollable anger and rage.Consumption of Aspartame causes these same symptoms in non-diabetics as well. Documentation and observation also reveal that thousands of children diagnosed with ADD and ADHD have had complete turnarounds in their behavior when these chemicals have been removed from their diet.

So called ‘behavior modification prescription drugs’ (Ritalin and others) are no longer needed.Truth be told, they were never NEEDED in the first place!Most of these children were being ‘poisoned’ on a daily basis with the very foods that were ‘better for them than sugar.’It is also suspected that the Aspartame in thousands of pallets of diet Coke and diet Pepsi consumed by men and women fighting in the Gulf War, may be partially to blame for the well-known Gulf War Syndrome.

Dr. Roberts warns that it can cause birth defects, i.e. mental retardation, if taken at the time of conception and during early pregnancy. Children are especially at risk for neurological disorders and should NEVER be given artificial sweeteners.

There are many different case histories to relate of children suffering grand mal seizures and other neurological disturbances talking about a plague of neurological diseases directly caused by the use of this deadly poison.’

Herein lies the problem: There were Congressional Hearings when Aspartame was included in 100 different products and strong objection was made concerning its use. Since this initial hearing, there have been two subsequent hearings, and still nothing has been done. The drug and chemical lobbies have very deep pockets.

Sadly, MONSANTO’S patent on Aspartame has EXPIRED! There are now over 5,000 products on the market that contain this deadly chemical and there will be thousands more introduced. Everybody wants a ‘piece of the Aspartame pie.’I assure you that MONSANTO, the creator of Aspartame, knows how deadly it is.

And isn’t it ironic that MONSANTO funds, among others, the American Diabetes Association, the American Dietetic Association and the Conference of the American College of Physicians?

This has been recently exposed in the New York Times. These [organizations] cannot criticize any additives or convey their link to MONSANTO because they take money from the food industry and are required to endorse their products.Senator Howard Metzenbaum wrote and presented a bill that would require label warnings on products containing Aspartame, especially regarding pregnant women, children and infants.

The bill would also institute independent studies on the known dangers and the problems existing in the general population regarding seizures, changes in brain chemistry, neurological changes and behavioural symptoms.
The bill was killed.It is known that the powerful drug and chemical lobbies are responsible for this, letting loose the hounds of disease and death on an unsuspecting and uninformed public. Well, you’re informed now!

Please print this out and/or e-mail to your family and friends.
Share, speak to your Dr. Seems this is causing issues, did some research.

 

Do speak to your Dr whatever you do or think. Could it be? I research HARD! And stumbled onto this, so shared a story, Google away folks

Shaun

Agony and tired Poem

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I know this is a rubbish poem, but I am trying to work my mind to wake up

 

 

Legs are heavy like lumps of metal, eyes are heavy

My severe Pain is all over I feel I paid my levy

With legs like metal and so sleepy I feel unsteady

I just want to sleep, say good night because I am ready

 

I try to ignore it but I can’t so I write the pain away

But sadly the blues have come and beat me today

I feel like I haven’t slept for a week, I am so weak

Today at aged 40 I feel like an old battered antique  

 

What do I do, do I give in and go to bed, take the drugs?

Do I fight the heavy red eyelids and look for loving hugs

My mind feels like it’s someone else’s, one of a thug

I can’t think or feel today, there are no feelings of smug

 

Walking 10 feet from my laptop in the kitchen

Just to put the kettle on to make a cup of tea

Is like climbing a hill with one leg or climbing a tree

I feel like yesterday I walked from here to Dundee

 

My whole body aches like I just played football

Or spend the night before getting drunk at a dance hall

The truth is I spent yesterday watching TV on my lazyboy

I can honestly say this isn’t nice or cool there is no joy

 

Tomorrow is a new day, a day where things might be better

Maybe when I awake in a new day I will be a go getter

Perhaps if I am lucky and good I can write a love letter

Sadly I fear when I awake I know I will have had better

 

Pain and tiredness 

knees have no strength, ankle knackered/Small Violin

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So here is the latest. Two swollen knees, that I can’t bend. Awoke this morning, they just don’t want to play ball (I am getting VERY American in my old age) 😀

Knee’s like light bulbs is the saying, sheer agony, tried Emugel, still nothing. Took me about 10 minutes to walk for a cup of tea, seeings as I am invisible today!!!

This box tells lies. I look nothing like the man in blue, I may sue! Dihydrocodeine, Tramadol and Diazepam, had 3 of each

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Add to that my right Ankle

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This is just as sore as it usually is, This is an older picture I happened to find online as I have done it 8 times now, the image was STILL on my Imageshack account. Anyway, pictures or no picture it is a shit state of affairs, I am bed ridden, can’t move, I am on my side, legs straight and a cushion between my knees. I can usually handle pain ok, this, hard. Two places I hear you say, well add my hips, spine neck, elbows, wrists, other ankle, hamstring on left knee and generally all over my body…

…It is just one of them days. It is strange how you get used to is, how the pain becomes normal, run of the mail rubbish day, But I have the Dog and you to keep me company. Courtney re-started nursery this morning, her 2nd year, not being able to go was a pisser, bit Dawn tool photos I think, She looked so sweet in her nursery/school uniform and her blond pig tails, she came into the room. gave me a kiss and was to excited for anything else. Chloe did the same, I think she thought she was going also, but she doesn’t start till the 27th of this month (Dawn if you read this, and I am wrong, it’s the medication)

Anyway

Shaun update at 10AM on this rubbish Thursday. I need to rest today fully as it is shopping  day tomorrow. It still troubles me how one day, 2 hours of shopping can be so hard these days. It truly is like planning a weekend away or something. Anyway, hope you all have a good day, this took me over half an hour to write, so you better read it lol

Shaun

To play me out, the worlds smallest violin 😦

Good Morning – MY 900th Blog! woooo yeah!

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Sorry for getting all American in the Tittle, these things happen to idiots like me. so I will just  say it like a good British person “Horray”

Good morning to the Eastern World. The West is still asleep, the lazy sods!

Yesterday I fractured my right ankle, spent most of it in bed, on Morphine and in a lot of pain.  Still sore thins morning, but no medication as yet. I am happy to say there were NO Zombies or Lesbians. Although the Lesbian thing, I was kinda hoping for, but in a strange, “I didn’t really” kinda way. You know where I am going with this. For those confused, catch up, please

1. http://prayingforoneday.wordpress.com/2013/08/13/morphine-wins-the-day-good-night-troops/

THEN I WOKE UP 3/4 HOURS LATER 

2. http://prayingforoneday.wordpress.com/2013/08/13/morphine-worked-for-a-while-lesbians-zombies-and-being-alone/

And here I am in a new day, a new dawn, and I am feeling good. My ankle is as swollen as a melon,  but I am in pain anyway, so, good morning, and I leave you with a song to say “Good Morning” THIS!!! Is a morning song. You may wish to turn them speakers up, get up, dance a little and be happy you are breathing. I can’t as my ankle is fractured. But I am dancing while sitting. I was thinking of recording me dancing, but my hair is a mess, maybe another day.

More love

Less hate

Shaunypoos 🙂

To you all who live in pain, read and listen x

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I know I am not alone in my pain be it physical or mental, I know when I blog I am blogging the same as thousands of others, so this blog is for us all who live in pain

I am around 15 years in pain, as I got older the pain got worse and it has peaked, but 2 days ago because the pain had dulled I took less medication for the two weeks it dulled, the pain came back and there was little to no pain relief in my system, it was awful, so if you live in pain and the pain goes for a day or two, please, take some medication, keep some in your system, but speak to your Dr first

I don’t know how some can go on, I know I have times where my mind says “I can’t go on” I guess we just need to be strong, or this happens http://prayingforoneday.wordpress.com/2013/08/04/no-human-should-have-to-live-like-this-so-unfair/ we end up alone and nowhere and in a really bad place. I am glad I blogged that, I scared a few people, but it was a cry for help, it was me saying “I can’t do this no more”

If you are ever there, please, talk to someone, blog it, pick up a phone, ANYTHING, because what I learn over the last two days is “I have more family and friends than I thought I did” It was unreal the calls I had and people visiting.  I was like “A phone call would have done” But people give a shit, and through all the pain and that blog, good happened. People now know, so that is good

Always speak to your Dr if you feel like the way I did in that blog. Suicide is real, it happens and you NEED to know there are other ways and you must speak. That blog saved not just my life but made me realise things I probably should have before the blog.

You are not alone, never, I came here to reach out, in the hope people reached back, and BOY did people reach back. Dawn my partner reads my blogs as do my sons and some of family and it lets them know how I am, I don’t have to tell them, they know, so blogging my SOUL has helped me in more ways that I can ever describe.

I often say “I want old Shaun back” Truth is, he was never away, he was always here, I learnt this over the last few days.

So please, keep on keeping on, if you reading this blog, you are not alone x

More love, less hate

Shaun

Another day has gone 
I’m still all alone 
How could this be 
You’re not here with me 
You never said goodbye 
Someone tell me why 
Did you have to go 
And leave my world so cold 

Everyday I sit and ask myself 
How did love slip away 
Something whispers in my ear and says 
That you are not alone 
For I am here with you 
Though you’re far away 
I am here to stay 

You are not alone 
I am here with you 
Though we’re far apart 
You’re always in my heart 
You are not alone 

All alone 
Why, oh 

Just the other night 
I thought I heard you cry 
Asking me to come 
And hold you in my arms 
I can hear your prayers 
Your burdens I will bear 
But first I need your hand 
So forever can begin 

Everyday I sit and ask myself 
How did love slip away 
Then something whispers in my ear and says 
That you are not alone 
For I am here with you 
Though you’re far away 
I am here to stay 
For you are not alone 
I am here with you 
Though we’re far apart 
You’re always in my heart 
And you are not alone 

Whisper three words and I’ll come runnin’ 
And girl you know that I’ll be there 
I’ll be there 

You are not alone 
I am here with you 
Though you’re far away 
I am here to stay 
You are not alone 
I am here with you 
Though we’re far apart 
You’re always in my heart 

You are not alone 
For I am here with you 
Though you’re far away 
I am here to stay 
For you are not alone 
For I am here with you 
Though we’re far apart 
You’re always in my heart 

For you are not alone

4 Days now, my pain has almost gone..

Another few weeks, I might get this tat..

Another few weeks, I might get this tat..

4 days now no pain. I still feel a bit of pain, but I am not jumping through walls with pain, still sore though, only reason I have to take medication is because my body needs a small amount to live, so if this keeps up, less medication. The 4 days with no pain have all been thunder and lightning and RAIN! The days before the weather was very hot, 85F and above some days, my body couldn’t take it. So the day it started with rain and thunder, no real pain. I have went years in agony, now I am feeling “ok” and I didn’t want to blog it in-case I jinxed it lol

But no pain, I can walk, my body isn’t throbbing with pain, I am not waking up and taking an hour to get up, I am able to just get up. Don’t get me wrong my left knee is still sore, but a pain I can manage, strange, it is as if the pain has just gone. I know some will say “Prayer” and “God” for me; it is no coincidence it went the day the thunder came.

But it helps to be surrounded by people who help you and keep you positive, people who try to divert your pain away through laughter and “Whatever means” you know; I said a while back this pain can just “Go” as quick as it came. But I don’t want to build up hope. Today the weather is hot again; sun is shining and, still no REAL pain, not enough to have me climbing the walls anyway. It is weekly shopping day, so I will see how I feel later today after being out in the heat with just long shorts on. So as Dawn says, STOP doing things for a few days, and I will listen to her, she told me to relax and let my body heal and just “Feel” if that makes sense, so BOY! am I

Wish me luck

😉 SAY NO PAIN, as dawn says, “Feel”

girls are right

Still no real pain today, as we get thunder and lightning with heavy rain…

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Awoke today to hard rain and thunder and lightning, and NO PAIN

It is now nearly 9pm, and the pain has stayed almost away. Don’t know if it’s due to the thunder and lightning?

But I will take this. Not needed ANY medication all day…

Took the dog out and just stood at the front door under the rain and let it wash over me, was a surreal moment…no pain!

More love.

Less hate.

Shaun

Woke up, great sleep and hardly any pain today…YEY!

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Awoke up around 07:30 am, brilliant sleep, and I feel LITTLE pain! For me this is a first, we will see what “Later” Brings. Good Morning World…

I will annoy you all with music x

TURN THOSE SPEAKERS UP!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Was awake 44 hours, awoken after 3 hours with Acid Reflux

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It is a good thing it is coming up, I know that much, I just need to find out what food/drink is doing this, but always after being awake for a LONG time

This is just getting too much, I was awake best part of 2 days with all body pain because of the pain all over my body I managed to fall asleep at 9pm (ish) Then I awoke with this cough and burning sick in my throat, its wearing off now, and it’s the first time I had it since here http://prayingforoneday.wordpress.com/2013/04/14/pain-now-my-ibs-and-acid-reflux-are-back/  on the14th April almost 3 months ago

I know I don’t have an ulcer in my stomach as I get this 3 or 4 times a year, it is almost away, but waking up with this and body pain is a bit much! For anyone who hasn’t had this it awakes you with a cough, for me ALWAYS it awakens me, I had had hardly anything to eat, but had been up almost 2 days, talking medication every 4 hours but also taking anti acid tablets when I usually would

Anyone got ANY advice on this? I have been to the Dr, been for tests, I go 3 or 4 months without it, and I am careful what I eat as I know the control foods to take/not take. I just threw up a dark yellow grunge and am now drinking cold water, seems to have calmed down, also taken an anti-acid tablet. If it isn’t the pain it is this. I can’t get one day without one or the other. This never bothers me when awake, ALWAYS wakes me up, Advice?

AWFUL!

AWFUL!