There is no scientific proof Music can help people in agony, like I am now, but let me tell you, as I sit here with my headset on trying to get the pain to go away, the music is having an impact on the pain and my mind. There should be a study done on this, the picture above explains it well, for anyone down, in pain, allow the music to take your mind away, for me it works. I have posted some of these songs many times but as said, my blog, my rules and what works for me I do x
Blog number 1,001 here, I wanted to make this blog number 1,000 and forgot, but the one after 1,000 is good enough
I arrived here around 8 months ago as you can see with the picture below, I was ill, my head wasn’t right, I wasn’t doing football, I was doing very little, I was an ill man, in the head and in my body
When it all started, I had no clue back then
I then started to blog about me, then slowly about others and then to other things, out of this world things, ANYTHING to take my mind away from the pain, I just had to write, be me good bad or indifferent I don’t care, never have, I just know writing helps me, Dawn knows that also, she misses me hugging her in bed more than I was, she misses me hugging her watching a movie as much as we used to, but we still do, just not as much
I have over 100 blogs and things I have wrote unpublished I just need to write, I need to open my mind to the possibilities of living and what comes with it, what makes us live, and also what brings my pain, I try and remain happy, smile, I do a lot of fun blogs, I do REALLY try my best to get to others blogs, it is so hard for me
So for my 1,0001th blog I need to say thank you for allowing me to share my caring side. I always had one, I just could never know where and when I could share it, I mean away from my own home. Here on Word Press you took me in, accepted me for what and who I am, I helped others when I could, I tried SO HARD to bring light to our darkness, and I hope I can sit here today an say I did, you be the judge.
One thing I have learnt, or taught myself is that sharing helps, caring helps, giving a shit really does help. I have always had this caring side, even when I was not allowed to have these feelings, we are going back to when I was a bad boy here, I didn’t want to be doing harm, I wanted to help, I went against my SOUL sometimes, my inner thoughts were being trashed by things I didn’t like myself for.
So just to sum up, Share the Care, it helps me, and I know it helps others
Here is to 2,000 blogs, and I pray when I hit 2,000 blogs my pain will be less
Share the care and give a shit, you will feel your heart open up, I know it, I seen it x
My song for today is “Stand by me” by Oasis. Many may not have heard this version, but it is a song for you all, I hope you have someone to stand by you, I hope people keep standing by me. I am not a well man, and there are a lot of ill people out there, I guess we all just want them to stand by us, help us, guide us. I know I do
Song for today is from The Beautiful South, they were an English pop/rock group formed at the end of the 1980s by two former members of Hull group The Housemartins, they done song’s such as Perfect 10, Need a little time. This song here I love, “Don’t Marry Her” it goes out to a friend of mine getting married to a woman he doesn’t love. He won’t read this, but the song is for him, and a reminder the grass is never greener on the other side. If you have not heard this, give it a listen, brilliant song 😉 Also a few choice lyrics. Just a heads up
Todays song is a new one, I posted this song a week or so ago, but the video is new. This song for me represents togetherness, and love and helping others out when in need. Sometimes a message written can lead to better things, and its about “People like us” The lyrics will explain, please enjoy, it was filmed in the USA and has a great ending, and tells a POWERFUL story also
Amazing how the blog below can spawn this blog, just because of one song, but from me to you, all my loving, amazing when you look in the crowd, people from aged 10 to 80 singing this song, some songs never die, for many this was something else, seeing A Beatle live in the flesh must have been something, get those speakers up! Classic this is
As I sit here in mild agony listening to Bryan Adams sipping on a cup of warm tea I made 20 minutes ago. It is 03:30, yet another night up alone, in pain, feeling a bit down and just wishing I had a normal sleeping pattern, “dream on big guy” I hear back in my mind from a voice I don’t recognise
See we were born to live and be around others, lately I have felt alone in a busy room, yesterday I was sitting here typing something, can’t remember what, and my son was standing speaking to me, then walked away, I broke my concentration to say “What? Sorry, did you say something” for Dawn to say, he was talking to you. That hurt me a LOT
See I don’t mean to be ignorant, I don’t mean to ignore people, the pain is sometimes that strong I have to turn parts off and just go with what I am doing. It is an skill I taught myself a while back, it helps me forget the pain, I just turn off a part in my brain, don’t ask what part and just do what I am doing, typing, writing, listening to music, watching TV
Then it dawned on my “Do I do this all the time” I hope I don’t, if I do what do my family think, do they think I have lost my marbles? My mind is the last thing I have that I can control, and I am just taking the pain away. This night I feel alone, as I type this everyone is sleeping, the window is open as it is hot and all I can see is tree’s, or the shadows from the trees, part of me when I typed that shat it, but I am hot, so the window stays open, it is like a scene from the Blair Witch Project my view, you do get used to it
So, if you read that above, and you are alone, you are not now, as Shaun is here alone also, we can be alone together, never be alone, if you are, write about it, don’t feel alone, you have choice, when I realised I had choice, things changed I guess, the only thing that stayed the same was the pain, I can block it out a bit, but if I stop to think about it, it hurts, it burns, it is almost alive inside me like another person dictating my thoughts, this is how I have got used to dealing with pain, looking at is as friend, should I do different and call it enemy, then it beats me, so friend it is. Even just typing that the pain spiked, but what should I do? Give in, or go on? I choose to go on 😉 x
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