Go live your life without fear

In life I always used Fear as my friend. I used to overcome fear itself, when I was in battle, or I was taking others into battle, I would say “Fear losing” Be afraid of fear, but don’t be Fear

I know this may make little sense to people, but sometimes I see something or hear something and I blog, it is a moment this blog, and for anyone out there who is fear, use that fear to get fear out of your life. If we go into life with trepidation we lose, we must always fear losing in life, if we don’t then life wins, we have to take our fear and use it against it, throw fear back at fear because I know if I am going to live and see more of my dreams come true I need to feel fear and beat it

More love, less hate

Shaun

 

I want to scream till the words dry out (500th blog here for me)

Give me a soap box

In life some sit back and complain, I was doing this. Now I am desperate to “Scream till the words dry out” about things people NEED to know. Just give me the chance.

Someone take a chance on me,  I have my own Radio show almost ready to go, sadly we sit blindly and without the ability to hear, we have no future. x

Sometimes I look to a song for inspiration, same as someone looks at scripture for guidance. It’s the same thing, the end result is the same, in my opinion

Shaun’s Football Poem

 

I am circled in red, winning a trophy in a stadium in Edinburgh

 

The Dr said to me football is a no go

So I went and decided to go and show

I might be sore, I might be slow

But this lads not for saying no

 

15 years of memories with 200 players

Memories I cherish with all my prayers

From kids to teens to adults we were slayers

All I ever wanted was a group of players

 

So I decided the Dr was wrong and went back

No more will Shaun get told he has the sack

I will keep my focus and stay right on track

Winning trophies and memories I have the knack

 

With desire so strong and in my heart to win

To leave it all behind now would be a sin

Through agony and pain I go with legs of tin

To march these kids to trophies and a knowing kin

 

So the pain is there, it won’t go away at all

So Shaun must be brave and stand up tall

I must never lose sight; keep my eye on the ball

I will cherish each moment be it huge or small

 

With 19 trophies on my shelf from before

 There was never a chance I would close the door

I will do this for all I am till I am on the floor

Because deep inside the people I train do know the score 

These poems are just flowing from my mind..I LOVE POEMS..This is my 16th poem EVER!! 🙂

Get busy living or get busy dying

Thanks to the Shawshank Redemption for this saying

Dealing with being pissed off at being in pain and other things

Yesterday and today, although better today my yearly Sinus issue begun. I am to take antihistamines each day, and I wasn’t, so I paid for it yesterday. I spent the day STRUGGLING to do normal things. Already in agony with my normal Chronic Pain I had to deal with this Migraine, right behind my eyes and my sinus was blocked and also shooting pains in both ears

Some days I wake up and “Pray for one day” Just one day where I don’t have to deal with this. Again, I say this and I get guilty. And I know now I shouldn’t but I can’t help it, others tell me this, some who are well worse off than I. People who have no movement from the neck down to people dying, all telling, me not to feel this guilt, it is just my way, I can’t change it, but I guess it is my pain, my story, my life and my blog, so I have to learn to share, as I have been, with no guilt, and I do try

As a kid my Mother tells me I got ill often, as an adult I just don’t get ill, no flu’s, no colds. No nothing. I wasn’t ill yesterday; I was just sore, but in another way. Dealing with EVERY DAY! Is becoming tiresome, annoying, painful, upsetting, brings anger and hate! And I don’t do hate. I just hate having to burden my family with my issues, again, I am being stupid, they tell me this, people on here have told me this, but again, these are my feelings

Someone asked “What is the pain like” I answered “All over body toothache” This is the best way I can describe my pain. Others will have other ways to describe it, this is how I describe my pain, all over toothache, and only all day and every time I frikkin blink!

So getting annoyed is a symptom for me, getting angry, and depression is another. I am not depressed; I have not been told I am clinically depressed. I went to speak to an expert and had him in stitches of laughter; he knew I wasn’t depressed; I just got angry when the pain came.

I am tired. I need to rest, but I am stubborn, I don’t listen to my body. When my body tells me to rest, I don’t, and I should, so this is something I need to break through. If my body tells me to rest I rest. This is all new to me.  I have had this way over 10 years, but only the last few years have these thoughts came to my mind. I hope by restarting Soccer management and buying a Dog to walk will at least allow me to build up my muscles. I have been told and advised by my Dr, the Hospital and my occupational therapist to do both. “Get Moving” they tell me, and I have started, but with it comes enormous pain

I am fighting harder than I have, I am pushing myself to the limit, both mind and body, in the hope  I can break free from the mind games I play with myself. Pain is pain, no matter what I do, I will be in pain, and it is just the levels. I am testing myself to the limit here and if the pain is stronger, tough, I need to get back to living, I need to get out of this self created bubble and get out there again, doing things I love. Should I fail, I don’t know what I will do.

So, get busy living, or get busy dying

Cooking Chicken. Properly!

Sorry for the swear word. Gordon is A-Typical Scotsman, I LOL’d fairly hard at this.

A 72 Year old message that still has meaning in our sick world

If only…………..

I have posted this video before, but I want to again now I have a bigger audience of caring people. This is my only reason

In our sick world, we can all look around and see acts of individual kindness; this is what we have left, people being nice on a human level. As a species we do care, as a civilization we are lost. Somewhere, somehow, something went wrong, Corporate greed (And I have blogged this) has made our world a greedy place.

I see individual acts of kindness most days be it here online or in the street, I watch the nightly news and I ask myself where did this kindness go? Name a country not in War, at War or in Civil War or on the Brink of Civil war, you will struggle. If there is a country with 500 soldiers in a war zone, that country is at war.

What went wrong? Where did we get lost? What can we do? How can we do away with greed? How can we fight for a better world? Just a few questions posed in the clip below.

The clip below is 72 years in the making, done by Charlie Chaplin, this is was not scripted the way he said it, he winged it, it was spontaneous and during World War II

I ask you all watch this. I have posted it before, but when I had like 100 followers, now I have more followers and more love and intolerance and humanity in my friends here, I would like to share this video one more time. And if you can, PLEASE give me your thoughts.

When did our world turn to a War zone? When did the unloved hate, when did we lose our way, what caused it, and how do we stop it. This is a VERY STRONG message here, and because it is so old, it has lost no relevance 72 years since it was made.

I will say no more, you be the judge, because we are are all the cause and the cure, we did this, we allowed this, why?

This is me, you and the people you speak to, we all can change this

With love and humanity, Shaun x